I am sure it must be really difficult for you. Have you tried talking to them about your expectations? I am right here, let’s talk. How are you holding up?

I hope you are doing okay now. I'm in the same situation, but probably milder than you. All I can do is to cope with it. Because sometimes talking to them may not really help. And yep, I used to have suicidal thoughts. Now I'm trying to focus on myself and love myself more. And hope that I can move away from them somehow. Moreover, I'm an introvert and struggling with social anxiety. So yeah, my only emotional support is myself and my teddy bear. Lastly, a little bit of stepping out of the comfort zone can help with the anxiety. Seriously, being careless and selfish may sound bad to you. But if we don't care about ourselves, who's gonna care about us? And of course, I care about you. And somebody's here too.