I lost my husband March of this year. He was only 27 and had heart issues that lead to a transplant in 2017 but he still had complications. On the morning of March 9th when I got up for work he was talking to me and everything seemed fine, when I was about to leave I went to tell him bye, he was blue and not breathing. I did CPR until EMS came and they said he was gone. I don't know how to cope. I feel so lost. I constantly have mental breakdowns and never know whether to scream, cry, or both.