I recently lost my mother...it's been 40 days. I am going to be 27, and she wanted to celebrate it with me after 8 years as we were together. The loss is huge..can't explain however I feel that I am not doing okay, I am not able to concentrate on my work or my day to day activities. I want to cry but I cannot. I started smoking a lot, thinking it will provide relief. I keep scrolling through her photos in my mobile... Feel like there is a void... Life is incomplete without her.