Hii I lost my both parents in 2020. My mom because of kidney failure and my dad by heartattack. I have seen my mom in very worse conditions she was in coma for 20 days in ventilator. She was not even able to move her hands i am broken from inside i am not able to forget that part of my life where my mom was in soo much pain. And now i have became rude and easily irritated. I can't handle this much pain i don't know what to do about it. I am depressed most of the time, and if i became happy for sometimes i feel guilty about it.