Hey! I am glad you reached out. I am sure it must be really devastating for you. You can cherish the time you guys had together. Death is sometjing which can’t reversed. I am sure no one can fill the void that person has left you with. But we have to move on in life. We don’t have to forget the person but celebrate what memories we have of them. Start to engage in work, studies or any other activity, try to keep yourself occupied and try to accept it.

thank you so much for your reply. Yes, i'll cherish all those memories and time. But it's very difficult for me to move on right now because whenever i try to do anything to keep myself busy i suddenly start to get flashbacks. I'm just waiting to be normal. From the day he died on, i started having panic attacks. I'm in so much pain and no one wants to hear anything. I started watching series but it couldn't help. I just want to be normal and don't know how.

It’s very new. Take some time. Give yourself time to grieve. Don’t push yourself to be normal that person was a huge part of your life and it can’t be changed in a month or two. Just try to slowly accept that he isn’t there anymore. He would have never wanted to see you like this, try to move on professionally as well as personally.

yes i agree with you that these things take time. I'll try to process things slowly. Thank you so much for your advice.

hello, well, honestly it's gonna be hard. And, I'm not some psychologist, but I've been practising meditation and spiritual stuff from 1-1.5 years, so it is totally upto you if you want to follow the advise. and for you I highly recommend you should start investigating yourself through self talk, by asking correct question to yourself like, instead of asking "why it happend to me?", ask, "now what I should do about it?" should I let this thoughts to disturb me and my future or family or asking questions like how to control your thoughts and start researching about it, i highly recommend you to buy this book called "power of now" by eckhart and practically practice the stuff that book tells you to do. and start consuming positive stuff and never stop investigation like why individuals feel sad, anxiety and other stuff.. i know it's gonna be hard for you to loose someone who loves you. and yes if you want you can contact me on instagram name - psychelivin

Thank you sm psychelivin for such a good advice. I will do these things surely and also i'm not on instagram rn.

no problem

and no matter what happen, never harm yourself mentally

surely i will not. i know this is very difficult but i also know i have to live for my family.

good