I am sure you must be feeling this way. Now pls don’t look for happiness in a person. Take some time, be with yourself, focus on yourself. Please don’t rush in a relationship. You don’t deserve to be treated like this.

I tried focussing on myself but whenever I think that now I am moved on something bad happens I do so much for people's even my close friends blamed me yesterday and said that it's her mistake that she gave me importance am I that bad to be hear smthng like this even though I do care for them but listening to these things demotivates , she wants attention all the time when she feels low and if I think that she needs space then she blames me and says that I am wrong and I should apology for the mistake which I think I never did even don't even let me explain my point of view and infact at a times when I feel low I am silent she don't ask but expect me to bother her all the time ... These words literally hurts

Well it’s not you fault and stop taking the blames for things you don’t control.