I'm a below average college student, never thought computer science would be that tough, I'm shy and have limited friends, I see my classmates enjoying as well as thriving in academics. I have low self esteem, I'm lazy and don't work hard enough to get the confidence I need to do better. There's a loop, I'm shy->dont have friends->can't enjoy my life->that makes me sad->can't study cause I'm sad->doing bad in studies makes me feel less confident. I'm in 3rd year and I think there's not enough time for me to complete all the studies I need to do, I'm feel left behind from everybody. Lately I started to feel like my thoughts aren't real, they change every second, and are complementary. I lost my purpose and goal in my life. I don't even know what exactly the problem is.