Hey! Thanks for reaching out. It’s okay to be an introvert. There are different types of personalities. Have you tried telling your friends that they are special to you. If you are unable to share your feelings what you can do is start journalling, express your thoughts there.

I tried this but I am unable to and I think I m always think in worst case scenario for everything and usually imagine a scenario that this is going to happen so I drop my idea to share my feelings

Don’t share your feelings with people, if you aren’t comfortable. You can try to write down your thoughts or record how you feel then simply delete it. Then you won’t have the fear that people will judge you.

Ya I usually write them in the form of quotes and I think I am comfortable but I don't know why I can't share maybe overthinking

You can try here.

There was a time when I used to be the brightest kid in my whole family and after my school over I took some decision to pursue what I want to but somehow I got messed up in every aspect of my life and in my whole family no one support me everyone just used to say what are you doing and all you are doing wrong and my father used to use abusive language on me daily basis and used to I m worthless I can't do anything and I just feel like I m failure like I used to have sucidal thought and even I tried and there is so much going on everything is just messed up 😔

Taking a decision for yourself is a very courageous act. You aren’t a. Failure rather you have the potential to stand up for yourself and work towards your dream. Parents are usually concerned about the traditional education and all, your results will make them understand. Be determined and try to convince them that you’re happiness lies here.

I tried everything to convince them but nothing works well thanks for listening for my shit just hoping for the best cause right now everything single aspect of my life is messed up so so much

You can talk about it here. Whats bothering you?