i am feeling anxious and really uncomfortable but i have a big problem expressing my self i just fell so lazy to talk even when arguing with someone idont how to defend my self since i was a kid i faced bullying by evryone family friends school untill now in high school and i still dont know how to talk or reply i have anger issues and since i cant express my self i just get rid of anger by cutting my self ijust feel that i am weird and silly i wanna suicide but i dont wanna go to hell