Don't let urself drown... You deserve a better life... If u have tried everything to distract urself but still not working .. then the only way that remains is by forcing urself... Yeah, force urself to chase ur dreams... Cause remember the beginning is always the difficult part... First step is always always difficult... Take a step ... Stand for urself.... Tell urself I'm doing this for myself only... Meditation will work to stop ur unnecessary thoughts.... Things will take time... But it will definitely work... Trust urself .. Make a every day to-do list... Write everyday goals which r easy for u to achieve... I have to pressurize urself in the starting days...NO PRESSURE NO DIAMONDS... To move on u have to take a step now... All the best ... U can do it! 🔥

Meditation and Journaling are pretty much part of the schedule. But I'm not doing it since Saturday. I tried to complete the goals for Saturday which I set for myself on Friday but I just couldn't accomplish even a single task. I'm not Meditating either. Barely eaten in these 2 days. I don't know how to get over this shock. (My boyfriend of 4 years cheated on me... I found out on Friday night). I can see the bright light... my way out but I'm not able to get through it. On Saturday it felt like I'm drowning and can never get out. Gradually I made peace with the fact that I can't/won't get him back. And I should let him go. Felt like the drowning has stopped. It made everything so still... and now life seems so stagnant. Yesterday I tried to create ripples in this rather stagnant pool of life by being what I used to be before him. It made me happy for a while but kinda a disconnected me from the reality... the present. I'm back in the very stagnant present now wanting to get out of this swamp. I think you're right, I need to Pressurize myself. I might not be able to be as productive as I used to be 3 days back but I can still make this first step forward with my broken self and achieve whatever amount of goals I can so that I can finally heal and may be even metamorphose into the best version of myself. Thank you for the motivation and kind words. 💝 It feels good. It really does.