Hey there. I am a 26 year old boy with bipolar disorder. Currently I am a law student. Disorder started with fathers death when I was 14 at the age 17 I got graduated from higher secondary and loneliness and no money for college situation completely disturbed my mental health and spended 1 year in my room with no contact of anyone. At the age of 14 to 19 I can't sleep without pills. After the teenage I addicted to alcohol so started to do some job for the money to pay for liquor. I met a girl on 23 started dating and that moments were happy. The things started to tilt again in my life her attention were decreased time to time. She only calls me when she need anything from me. Then I again started consuming alcohol and she leaves me for the reason for consuming alcohol for 3 or 4 days in 2 years. Here started my maniac attacks after the break up. I know there is only one cure for bipolar disorder which is death. But I need to complete my law degree but I don't think I am capable to control my emotion in hostel. There is no one for me in hostel or college. Really need some help.