It all started 5 years ago, when I came into relationship with a girl online. I lied to her about my age in starting but eventually when we fell in love I realised my mistake and told her my real age. Then I made her talk to my mother too, I was too sure that she's the one and I'll marry her one day but things get bad in 2020 when Lockdown happened. Her mother got to know about the relationship and she was against it. They took her phone away and abused her for 4 months so she can forget me and marry someone in her own caste. I was shocked when she came back to me after 6 months of disappearing, but I was happy that she's back but soon I realised it's not her who's back, it's a mentally unstable person with lot of damage and pain in her. I tried to heal her but it just didn't work and eventually I realised she's not the person whom I loved so we broke up. this happened in 2020 now even after more than 1.5 years I'm still trying to have a stable relationship but failed to do so. I'd 3 failed relationship in last 1.5 years. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I get dreams on my ex once a month, Even when I don't think about her it's keep happening to me. I'm tired of it, I think There's something wrong but I don't know what it is.