it's feeling as if I am on slow poison.. whenever I take a step to heal myself something pulls me back and in even worse stage than before.. I feel like to hang myself to death but then I stop myself from doing that to my level best.. but now I think I am not safe with myself.. I don't know till when will I keep fighting.. I am just giving up slowly.. don't know till when will I be alive, i am just tried nd a looser indeed!