I have only very few friends. Even though they are close i don't feel like opening up to them. When iam feeling low, i wish i could talk to someone. But the thought of ruining their mood keeps me away from sharing any feelings. I don't want to bother anybody. So i bottle up my feelings most of the time. I really really wish, if i had someone to share my thoughts and yet i push away all relationships and will create a boundary from things getting personal.