Hey! I am sure it must be really difficult for you. Covid has made all of us vulnerable in some or the other way. Have you been applying for jobs? You don’t have any close friend to share with, if you don’t feel comfortable talking to people you can always try journaling, write about your feelings you will feel good. Expressing is a way of catharsis, it can be in any way. Suicide isn’t a solution for anything, rather look for options to make things work, let not one struggle make you feel negative about yourself. You have survived it all. Everyone has their own struggles, it’s just how you percieve and work on it. If you’re trying to chaieve something, work on it and have patience. Everyone’s growth process is different. Believe in yourself.