I have been facing lot of abuse since my childhood. Everything in my family is not like the others, my father had beaten my grandfather and me out of frustration.. My mom was never someone who I could ever look out for any kind of help. My existence meant nothing to her. I tolereted everything back then when I was a kid but now these things have started effecting me in my personal and professional life alot. And neither these things have stopped. I have trust issues, I always have mood swings,I feel exhausted, I get bad dreams, I start picturising bad things on my own even if when I don't want to.. Like, going on a bike and thinking everything on the road can kill me or we can have an accident. I don't speak up and discuss my feelings with anyone.