i had a very rough week. all of my little kittens were very sick, we went to the vet too many times i lost count 2 or 3 times a day which made me very very very exhausted and tired. i didn't get the help and support that i expected that made me very upset and angry! also i can't shake the feeling i did this to them because i didn't have enough energy to get them vaccinated at very beginning. these things make me feel more and more sad and helpless and prevent me from taking care of myself . I don't know why I'm writing all of this, but i wanted to get it of my chest