when will I get a chance to live, all I did till now is surviving, I don't think I can do this anymore, days feel like hell, waking up each day to the same depressing life, no one to even talk to , no one to even ask for a suggestion or neither a person who could understand anything about me. I feel so lonely. I'm trying to be grateful for something to feel better but there's nothing to survive anymore. no excitement for future, no joy or happiness to wait for, just my head full of burden, my heart full of pain. fear for future.