I didn't knew I was such a big idiot and dumb to not understand what I was instructed for. Days pass and I just feel I'm soo pathetic. Only one thing comes in my mind whenever I go out that I'm a loser and I'll screw things again. Sometimes I think why was I even born? To do what to embarrass myself. I feel like shit filled pathetic lonely loser. I deserve to die. I should die. Atleast a person who's more valuable should get my lifespan and I should die instead of that person.