you're saying that, why?

hey Jen. i understand you are feeling very bad. but putting yourself down and being hard on urself isn't good. all of us are going through something too. so we are ready to catch u make u walk with us. so just share. what's making you feel that way

It's just that my Mom gave me responsibility that I would complete and I terribly failed in that. It's something I can't clearly explain and I got scolded for not being able to manage such a small thing. The scold has just triggered all my past emotions and now I just feel messed up brat. I'm remembering all the silly and stupid things that I did without knowledge. I feel like I lack in everything. I just am such an idiot. I feel terrible 😭

it's alright to mess up too. we learn from our mistakes and then go ahead. u deserve a hug 🤗

I have been thinking like that from years but in between something good happens and it gives us a push we know that we will get out of that dark place that we made in our minds in which there is just rubbish about ourselves. I know it sounds like everyone will give us this advice but it's true we should put us first and we deserve respect of our own heart's first before others. I often myself think that why am I even continuing this shitty life but we deserve just cried out my eyes a minute before but we should give ourselves some chances to prove who we are and even if we mess it just let it be. I hvlave social anxiety and I mess my speech everytime whenever my teachers picks me for answering I just squirm and stare at my hands or whisper something and my teacher always complain to my parents thinking I am a kid who's lousy at studies and my parents totally buy that right now I am half fried in depression and nobody still cares but hey we deserve our own self love and comfort.( I still stressed out that what will be people's reaction on this (and I feel again like I am embarrassing myself (my mind is stupid and I think I am just babbling about thing s right now))

I also have social anxiety sometimes I can't even talk to people I know looking in their eyes nd I'm unable to talk to people who call me due to some purpose. I just mess up everything. I even speak very fast and I feel very bad abt it coz sometimes my friend's don't even understand what I'm trying to say. I just feel a shit that's been brought to this World. I sing alot coz I just love to but when I've been given chance to sing in front of people I just Backout. I feel like I down my parents and myself everytime. I don't know but I'm just lost and after screwing things I just want to disappear and never want to be found.

really, I have so many embarrassing stories about myself and when a teacher talks to me personally looking in my eyes ughh!!..... I have really no idea why but my eyes suddenly becomes watery as if I'm going to cry and my throat aches and then my brain sends a message to cry and I just stutter out the conversation as fast as I can or just nodding my head even though iam not understanding a single thing and just run out of their to the washroom and try to not cry cuz if I will people will ask did you cry your eyes look puffy. whenever I have speaking activity I tremble so bad.. sweating... goosebumps and I stutter my whole speech and that also my throat doesn't work so it's in low voice and when whole class shouts that they cannot hear I.......want to just die at that moment and I feel so frustrated and want to make them feel my way. I too feel like a shitty shit cuz I am half in depression and just because I don't shout about things like how I feel nobody pays attention I told my parents I have social anxiety after 1 month of realising cuz I was scared about their reaction, they said they understood but also continuosly told me it's in my head I really don't know what to do. but good give you company social anxiety buddy 🤜

Yes, I understand you cause I've been in that classroom speak up phase too. Even in future how I'll manage the panic attack while in crowd I don't know. You know I even prefer to stay masked while going outside in that way I feel secured. I've been in a state where people used to tease me. Even I find that I'm not beautiful enough to be able to walk around and if I do so people would again stare at me and gossip like they used to before. I feel like rather than having a shit life like this I just want to die and see God up there. I've been dealing with depression from past month's. And even a little scolding used to trigger my " I should die " thought. I used to scribble on papers. Sometimes I used to write letters to God to just let me die. I feel like a burden myself and to my parents. I pretend to stay free & happy but nobody knows what I'm going through