hm it was too much for me these days to handle things have been overwhelming but just yesterday i made up my mind to take care of myself and to get better i was doing well until evening, i keep getting random waves of sadness and the worst thing about it is i can't talk to anyone else about it for I have been bottling up things for a long time but today i feel it's too much for me to handle on my own, my life's been falling apart,no matter how much I try to get my life together I keep coming back to the same point i left, i had cut off connections w some of my friends because i felt our friendship was getting toxic which in real it was, both the sides lacked efforts yet i feel a sense of guilt and i do miss them but everytime i talk to them, we end up arguing and hurting each other. My exams are next month, I've been trying to really study but i can't and all these are making me stressed out. i get mood swings and that just worsen the case. I've no idea how I can get out of this state