were you depending on the guy?

no

do you guys have an unnatural relationship?

nope

why can't you judge him for his true self? do you feel manupulated and unfair at times?

everytime..we begin knowing each other online ..he seems to be too nice..but in real he was confused not a LTR kinda guy and was always making this compatibility graphs ...was judging our relationship for his own good ...he constantly mentioned that his ex messaging and one of his colleague come to his room drunk and asking for it..i mean it made me insecure ..i compeletly hate myself for loving tht guy and i feel i cant get over him

that made things more worst when i think constantly about him

so you are saying you felt insecure with that guy and you haven't even met him?

yeah, don't believe everything you do on the internet, it is full of scambags.

last year my mother was admitted in the hospital..he was one of the intern under duty....we interacted a little he gel up with my mother really well my mother would tease me that someone looking for ..it felt good ..but at that time i was completely focused on my mom's health ..later she got discharged he asked me for my no. and i agreed and gave the no. prime concern i can call him if need medical emergency ..but gradually we started talking on phone ..late nights ...he did express his feelings and then i met him personally ...later we get into relationship...but i was juggling between my mom health relationship and my ongoing depression..which i didnt tell him ..i dont know why...i always get this red flags from him but my mind was shunned and exhausted most of the time..i didnt how to be strong enough..i was lacking self esteem

I know this feeling, I just had a break up too. You are focusing on the good parts but what about those times when you got hurt,you cried. Relationships are for happiness,there's no point in a relationship where you are constantly getting hurt.So just don't think about him .It's tough but you have to do it.

parents putting marriage pressure i am not ready for