my whole life is just feels like one big mess, I wake up every day feeling like I'm missing something and I've wasted my life, Ive never even kissed a girl and I'm twenty, I didn't enjoy my teenage days at all, Ive depressed and unhappy for Soo long that if just feels normal now, I don't know why I can't just accept my self for who I am

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soul_in_distress · Answer

talk to me

enviouslard8 · Answer

I don't know where to start

soul_in_distress · Answer

just start

soul_in_distress · Answer

it's ok

soul_in_distress · Answer

I'm here

enviouslard8 · Answer

well I've been trying to improve for sometime now, I've just mostly learnt how much my life is messed up, I always feel so anxious around people in public, and some certain people it's like I need them to like me and I just end up freezing or keeping to my self, I've been trying to get over this for years now and I just feel hopeless, my counselor in church says it might be because my parents told me I can't be an artist so subconscious I think it's bad to be my self, I just know that I want to forget my life

ardentdunbird8 · Answer

I thank kissing a girl is not happiness. Real happiness is making other happy by helping,  by giving the needy one's, by consoling other by words or by passing a smile to sad one's. And it would be better for you to visit jails , cancer hospital or visit any backward country which  will make you feel very blessed about your life situation. You can find a happy life as you are  twenty not ninety. Be grateful and seek happiness in  making other happy.  Which is real happiness

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?