I am new in this app , are there chat or any thing like this ?
madorange8
you can chat here tell your feeling you can join meetings if you want
billie
meeting is chat or what ?
madorange8
in meeting you can talk to people like a call
madorange8
here you can tell me your feelings i will try to help
billie
Listen, in short, I do not have the energy, but all I can say is that I have been suffering from depression for years and every day I have suicidal thoughts and there is no one suitable to tell them how I feel, my friends only spread negative energy to them
madorange8
look girl life ain't easy its really hard sometimes too hard that you feel to give up but that isn't the solution if suicide was the solution then everybody tried of their lives should do it
billie
my problem is bigger than listening it's bigger than resting for a while or sleeping or any other means of help I need real help, I feel like time is up
billie
tell me u can understand me plz
madorange8
you are here to fight it is not to give up i know its hard everything is hard being strong is hard it hurts alot but time don't stop not for a sec today is bad day tomorrow is bad day but whole life not gonna be bad there will be good day there will be days that you will feel grateful all you need to do is have patience
madorange8
if today you do suicide then what about the efforts you made before what about the life you have dreamt of people will just say was so weak that killed herself people don't care what they saying dont think about anyone think about yourself past is what gone what you have is present and future
billie
It was not the only solution I swear, I tried instead of a thousand times and did not give up from the first problem I faced, I fell and got up a thousand, I did everything, I lost my best friend, I lost my lover, I lost my family, I lost myself, I lost my dream and my last hope, can you tell me what I am waiting for?
madorange8
why you looking for people to hear to understand to help you have yourself dont depend on anyone depend on yourself what you losted is gone but you have yourself dont you wanna do somethinf for yourself
billie
Just because my last hope of helping myself failed. All my attempts to help myself feel like the issue is out of my hands so I asked for help from others and that's why I'm here
madorange8
look for the mistake why you failed whats the reason where you lacking giving up is not option
madorange8
you dont know what is waiting for you it can be bad it can be so good that it can replace all your previous pains
billie
my family is THE REASON
billie
my life is
billie
my teacher , my country
billie
If I did it, I didn't commit suicide, I was killed
madorange8
everyone don't have supporting families everyone dont have loving familes but that doesn't stop you from fighting for your life
madorange8
can you tell me your age , religion and country
madorange8
and who exactly tried to kill you or the reason
billie
19
billie
My community is Muslim, but I am an atheist, but here are those who say that they kill him, the Arab community
madorange8
tell me about others also
billie
Everything here is trying to kill my family, my community, my people, my despair and my fear of everything. I am not free and I have not sinned to lose my freedom in this way.
madorange8
I'm Muslim also and to surprise im 19 also and believe me my life is more worst the pains im having are unbearable but i never thought of doing suicide bcoz it's haram you know You have Allah who can't go against His decisions
madorange8
you know He tests His people then dont fail His test dont give up easily life is short or long no body knows but you gotta spent it and believe in Him left everything on Him cry to Him tell Him you weak He will hold you
billie
Yes, I know that, but I do not believe in it, but I suppose that it is the truth, for the truth is not satisfied with this, nor is this justice at all.
madorange8
look timly worried shouldn't effect your belief
madorange8
you can elaborate your feelings little more
billie
How can I tell you how much I cried, how much I prayed, how much I bowed to him, how much my voice disappeared from so much so high that he could hear me, he never heard me
madorange8
why you losing your faith how you know that He is not hearing Your pain is not removing It doesn't mean He is not with you If He is making you wait then dont you like this
madorange8
when we Ask Him something we need strong faith and believe and bcoz of wordly worries you are losing the believe
madorange8
one more thing if you want to die then put some fire in front of you and remember hell is thousand time hotter than it and painful
billie
My whole life is wasted dude and he can't hear me
madorange8
that's what you think .
madorange8
you don't know what He has written for you
madorange8
may be right now in your life nothing is going on fine but you dont know future dude you dont know His decisions trust Him firm your belief and faith
madorange8
pray 5 times read quran you will find peace and you will find answers of your questions
billie
Therefore, you asked about a specialist, because if you asked any specialist and told him that you advised someone to pray and the Qur’an and he was about to commit suicide, he will bear you his fault, they are not the solution
madorange8
This isn't how things work you not trying to help yourself you already made it in your mind that you are giving up then how can someone help you
madorange8
it depends on you i can only listen and suggest its on you to understand
madorange8
i will just say dont give up be patient try once more this isn't the day