i reallY want to get well mentally ....but i'm so scared of reaching out...im hopeless perso im so alone that i got no one listening to me or me struggling here...... i tried doing counselling few weeks in this lockdown but it didnt work out for me instade i feel even more disturbed and less willing to entangle my self with society.....i hate being alive but scared of death plus i got no amibition nor future to look forword too...... and that makes me feel like im a trash on road making that road look dirty and disgusting.