I am feeling really anxious and depressed for quiet a while now.I am really sick of myself because i am literally not good at anything and cant really do anything right.I am an introvert so i dont have so many friends.And even with the friends i have,i feel so left out and lonely with them.I am really scared of the fast moving syllabus in our college and really just want to give up.I dont think i have a future in this field because i am not really good at memorizing stuff which is required in my field.I feel like i have no future and nowhere else to run away.sometimes i have suicidal thoughts but i am unable to do anything because i keep thinking about my mother and sister and how they would feel if i died.Life seems like a burden with nothing good in it and i just want to close my eyes and sleep forever