my late bestfriend passed away on the 28th of August 2020 she commited suicide , her birthday is tomorrow and i don't what to do i'm honestly not feeling okay i need her i'm thinking of writing something short just expresssing my feelings on how i feel since she left eve though i know she wont be able to read it I'll just be want to remove everything that's weighing me , i sometimes feel like i should have done the same as she did and commited sucide