I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder last year, and it entailed with bipolar later on. I was on antidepressants and anxiety medication then. But when the lockdown began, I stopped going to the doctor because I couldn't afford to pay for the sessions. Ever since then, the series of my breakdowns have prolonged, everyday I wake up with an anxiety attack. And I end up having panic attacks without any reason. It's getting difficult. I used to use self harm as a coping mechanism but now that even that doesn't help,my thoughts keep on wanting to kill myself and it's too much.