Hey! Thanks for reaching out. It’s very natural to be scared of your present situation because we all tend to draw conclusions from our past experiences. Have you tried talking to your partner about your insecurities? Try to express what you feel and discuss what you both can do to make it work smoothly. Don’t rely on anyone for your happiness, understand that any person whosoever is in your life is a part of your life they are not your entire life, your world revolves around you not the other person. This will give you the vision to work on yourself.

I'm very bad at opening up. I hardly have anybody to talk about my problems with. Sometimes it's just my mother but she is very obsessed with me and worries a lot and I don't like to make her feel like that and so keep things within me only. Once I tried to explain things to my partner and he assured me about this relationship but I hardly believe in words! Talking to my people didn't really help.

Okay, this happens. Try to trust atleast someone in your life. But if you still feel that it’s difficult for you to shAre then why don’t you try to maintain a journal? Write about your feelings. Writing has also proved to be very cathartic.