I loved him, i love him...it's just feels like i'm hanging in between. Sometimes memories are just so overwhelming that i feel like how could i even think like that, how could i be so cruel to say i don't love him. But sometimes it's like it's just so lonely here, it's so cold, why can't i feel that warmness? Why do i feel so helpless, like drowning. Do i really love you? Do you really love me?How should i tell you, explain you these things? Why am the only one who feel like that? Why are you so oblivious to my silence when you love me?...