Me puri tarah se aapki pareshani nahi samajh sakta, aapke alawa koi nahi samajh payega. Par, please keep in mind, that you are a human being. I know you maybe in a situation that you can not get out of, as i know our Indian culture very well, but here is the thing. You have a child now. A responsibility, if it was not your choice either, then again i am sorry. Raising children is very very tough. You lose your own life to raise them, you have to give up your own dreams. Agar aap ko sb kch bura lg raha he, toh aap baitho, bina kisi disturbance ke, even without music, aur socho. Maybe there are other problems that are not so obvious. I can only give you this one advice. You are the person who knows yourself best, every little problem of yours, and only you are the one who can help themselves in the best manner. Think about the problems, find your problems and find their solutions. Do not think uselessly, do not think about the things you cannot control, think about what you can control to make life better, and then do what is best for you and your family. I hope you find peace.
this is post delivery stress that you are facing...I think you should consult a psychologist or gynaecologist.... because this js a very common thing among ladies...please do consult...and you are totally fine...no need to worry
thanx for ur concern... isn't here any counselor to whom I can talk