Hey that's ok you know it's not rare but painful. after a certain time we are scared to share are pain thinking they might think we are weak or might hate us and you know this might sound crazy. Ofc I am not therapist but it's same case with me just I never shared my pain or problems with Anyone cuz I didn't trust Anyone so instead I use to talk to plants and dogs/cats this might sound really stupid but somehow it use to make me feel relaxed I made a diary where I right my pains and problem I am suffering It helps me to find out what's actually bothering me and I make a sentence at the end every time to help myself most of the times I go with "Thing's can't go that wrong that they can't be made right again I am strong and I can do it'

I know it makes me sound like a psychopath but this helps a lot people

Thank you so much dear for sharing this

I will definitely try it

or if you really wanna share with someone who will reply you back tell the person you trust most. tell them the conversation is really important for you and let them know it really troubles you a lot ask for help don't suffer in silence

actually I trust some of my friends but I am scared what if they will break my trust or jut leave me and I go back into my past and think I use to share with this person also that person was the one whom I trust the most and never thought of loosing them but they just left me what if I will get attach again if that person will leave then what I am gonna do I could not make mistake by getting more emotionally dependent on someone

yes you are right I think I should share my pain but what if they will leave me my pain will get double if they leave me

I know this was the reason I never shared my problems with anyone cause I am scared they will break my trust . I don't trust anyone so I talk with plants if I am alone sure I feel stupid but it's different I feel like they might be hearing me and wants to help me but can't but at least they will never break my trust

if you can't share you can always go through apps like this and share anomouysly . sorry my English is not good cause It's completely different from my language

yes its really better idea I will do that

No don't bother its absolutely perfect

no I am not telling you to share with me just maybe seek help anoyomoysly

if you are worried about people leaving you. sometimes it's better to trust but we don't know the world is cruel nowdays

hey please don't get stressed about things

we are here to help you

you can talk to us

yes I can

thats the reason I am scared to share with my friends

because world is cruel and we dont know who will beak us

thank you for saying that blissful orange2 it made me fell good

please feel free here..... here nobody will break you

you are always welcome

yess

if you are not able to share anyone....try to share here.... one will surely connect with you

yah

you okay ardentorange

??

feel free to talk we are still here

I am just feeling like I am failure I failed in my academics , I failed in my relationships ,I failed in friendship

And sometimes just feel unworthy

hey you know failures are the way for success. we might think we have failed everything but there are still some things you have been best at feeling unworthy discourage ourselves

yes you are right failures are directly proportional to success

hey it's okay we all have terrible past I was in depression and I never recovered I just let it affect me and made things worse for me but I hope you won't let this happen to yourself

yes I am trying my best

hey there you good? I thought there was a comment

yes I am feeling far better than yesterday thank you so much for helping me out in this situation

how are you?

I am fine actually I am facing lot of problems to

I am glad you feel better

thank you so much, so sweet of you

what type of problems can you share with me

actually I posted it already

should I share with you?

yes you can

So I had a fight with my mom yesterday . she just don't understand my point of view.I am a teenager so of course I will be gossiping with boys and girls about their crush or some dark memes among us , some curse words and all . However my parents are strict and if they read the chats and all I am as good as dead. So I change my security code and she wants me to change it when I don't want to .She was forcing me to change it then she started suspecting me if their is anything suspicious going on. and told me from now I can't go anywhere without my permission even though I never did it. I told her I don't like she check's my mobile and she said you are doing something suspicious. was i wrong? I felt like crying but I wasn't able to. I don't understand if what I did was wrong

I think your mom is so much interested in your personal life or she just wants to know whats going on suspiciously in your life I think you can do some things like hiding apps and you can log out from apps or uninstall it for some time and you can use it through websites because your mom is so curious and one day she will definitely ask you to show your security pin so I will just say get ready for that day ,and after when she will find nothing in your mobile phone she will automatically loose interest in your personal or social life

she always did it and find nothing there is a little problem I use WhatsApp all collage groups and all have groups in them so if I delete it she will ask me why i did it and I can't it's important app and I can clear chat's but when she is checking suddenly someone messaged me then I am dead

and now days I am feeling worst anxiety . I keep having anxiety attacks . I struggle to breath pull my hairs clench my heart my whole body shakes terribly. when someone speaking when I am having this attack I stop breathing my chest hurts the worst I can't breath for minutes and gasp for air. As I said I don't trust anyone I don't share this

I can understand your problem but you should not delete watsapp its really an important app but you can do one thing try to fix time of conversation with your close friends and after that you can clear chat

I can't she is really good in technology she will ask me at different types so I won't do it actually there is nothing really I can do about it and I know that I just want to know if I did something wrong

yes it happens even I am dealing with this problem since my childhood but I think we should spend more time with positive peoples or surround us with peoples who never try to pull us down or loose our confidence

I don't know anymore my anxiety don't let me sleep till late nights

I will just suggest you to get help from therapist its really helps please take help you need it ,and it will really make you feel more good than now.

Than I think you should try to make your mom as your friend and try to share small small things from social media, she will feel good ,I think she just wants you to involve her in your life as your friends get involved

u r girl?

well I do it I always watch Memes with her tell her jokes going on in our friend but she still suspect me and that's what I hate most

yes

you are facing the same problem which all girls usually do

that's kind off sad reality then

yes we cant do anything about that as its normal but we can take some steps to control our anxiety

I don't trust anyone actually since childhood I had alexythermia however I got rid of it but it's affecting now I don't understand what I feel

But sometimes writing a gernal may help you in identifying a pattern for your emotions .like just by writing it down the situations and writing down your thoughts and feelings may help you to know how you feel in that situation and how you can deal with it by knowing cause and problems of that emotions

there must be some reasons behind it why you really dont trust anyone or dont wana trust anyone

some incident may happened with you which makes you not to trust anyone anymore

I know writing is the best I mentioned it remember. I even talk with plants and animals

yess

I just hope dear you will feel better soon

it's good talking with you it's anoyomoys so I don't have to be afraid about trust always feel free to share your problems I will try to be here

yess always thankful of yours even I am so much happy to talk to you its always better to be anonymous rather than being known

its helps us not to get to trust or attach with anyone

yes that's right

can I ask where are you from like which country

India

I don't know why but I am sure so you are

yes

our english is indian

yeah right even though my 1st language wasn't English so I am kind of bad at it

no your english is actually good

ohh really

yeah

omg u still here😂

😅😂

whats going on how are you today?

ohh I am good but you know same thing had fight with my friends cause I am honest and told them I don't trust them

Its okay sometimes it happens but its a good thing to say truth they will understand you if they are your real friends

dont worry about that because we have lot many friends who are actually fake and they just say those fake words so that others will not feel bad but its always better to say truth in front of their face than being bitter on their backside

you know they aren't my real friends even since young a lot incident happened and the more I stopped trusting everyone. once we decided to go to Hangout and due to some issues I can't I told them I can't come with them I was one floor above them where they were the elevator wasn't working so I was climbing down And I was gonna great them but stopped as I heard my name . they were like ohh I am so glad she is not coming she is boring and cold faced always never smiles and ruins are mood. said one and other was like did you see the way she look at us I can guarantee you she is lesbian others were like I really don't like being with her this kind off happened 7-8 months ago I don't know what I felt I just sat down there I never cry it's too rare if I cry cause I only do it if I feel hurt most that day when I shed tear due to them I immediately knew trust is to much I can't even talk with them cause they don't deserve me

yes its better not to be with such peoples ,we should always be with peoples who genuinely feel good with us and its actually better to be happy alone ,we can make ourself happy and peaceful, we never need such kind of peoples who makes us feel bad about ourselves

we can be our own best friends and thats great

Yes it's better that way

if you feel you need someone to be your friend than we all are here to be your friends anonymously

yes ofc

👍🏻hope you will feel good soon