I want to keep myself busy so that i stay distracted and not think about him but i just cannot find the motivation or the task to do. Everyone keeps saying do what makes you happy but all that made me happy was talking to him and spend all my evenings like that. I don't have any friends with whom i can go out for a walk or who can come and sit and talk to me face to face. All the days are same I find it difficult to get through the evenings since eveything feels so gloomy. I just need something to hold on or something that can make me happy or at least make me smile once in a whole day. I don't wanna depend on someone particularly to spare me their time, instead I need to create joy for myself and get a routine so that i can move on from all the bad emotions that comes when someone who was once the centre of your universe dumps you.