I dont know how to describe my feelings rn. All i can say is from past 2 years i am not doing anything ......literally nothing....my days just keep on passing.....i feel sad all the time ...even if sometimes i feel a bit happy it feels like i am faking it and i am feeling sad inside......main problem is loneliness.....i feel like i have no one ....no one at all to share my feelings....i have literally started hating each and every person i have met.....even my family...i am angry all the time....and everytime i shout on someone i do regret a lot.....but this is what i feel like........i have no friends to be call as real friends......everyone seems like they r just using me....feels like no one actually loves me and i dont love anyone even my own self...........i just hate everything ....i dont have any hobbies and things i used to like i hate them now....people have always disappointed me and hurt me.....just want to live alone now...enough of people.....i have had suicidal thoughts many times.....now even very small things trigger this feeling inside me.....but someone i control maybe because my little love for my close family....for no one else........just in search of peace from past 2 yrs.....but unsuccessful at it like i am always