Hi, this is very very new to me and very unlike me but I need to get my feelings out and I figured since I don't know y'all this might be the least embarrassing way to do. let me start by saying that I have no idea where these wmtions/feelings came from, it's almost like I woke up a different person. I have struggled with anxiety my whole life but I can usually just sweep it under the carpet. These days I have been finding it more and more difficult to do so. I can clearly see myself changing into another person but I feel I have no control, no way of stopping the change. I am but a shadow of my former self and honestly, I have been feeling like death would be a better option. The problem I face now, is that I am too much of a coward to actually commit to act. Hence, I am forced to live fighting the hell inside of me