i feel so alone at times, even when i have people who love me and i know will support me but i have had really bad trauma throughout my childhood and more. it's all so fresh in my mind even after years. i feel so pathetic even as I'm typing this. i just wish i could talk to someone without getting attached to them cuz i know it will happen if i do, and it'll eventually, sooner or later, be taken away from me too. life has gotten so exhausting and i feel like a fraud whenever i feel even a little bit of joy. i have so much in mind but i don't know what to do