I'm so selfish

Question

I'm so tired of myself ... everytime something went wrong i somehow managed because i was in delusion that I'm a good person but reality hit me hard when my inner demon finnally met me ..I'm the worst person ever seen i am such a selfish lizard , chameleon snake etc and i really am but I'm to scared to hate myself . I over react at things get angry easily for no reason that wasn't a trouble until in anger i again lashed out although i was completely fine i lashed out suddenly and revealed my mom's secret like not literally but partially and now i realise how horrible person i am ..i have always given them pain so sick of myself this isn't the first time me misbehaving but i guess i went to far without any reason i..i love them a lot but i don't wanna explain now cuz this is what I deserve ..why am I such a demon ?? why do i have a heart which doesn't love anyone else ..i don't wanna be selfish but i guess

awedzebra6 · Answer

U are bottling up your emotions so u lash out, that does not make u delusional. u are a good person n though u expose your mum's partial secret it was weighing you so u lashed out instead of confiding with a trusted friend or mom. u felt selfish cos your used to give n to take the blame for something out of our control is not in our hands. I understand how u feel, cos  I empathise alot to others emotions but when I want them to listen its like they do not understand what am saying or why I let it slip out. If your lasting out brings u peace definately not selfish, we just choose ourself for once

roamforpeace · Answer

but i never bottle up my emotions this is my problem i always become too honest and hurt others which is why many ppl detest me  but thanks for ur advice

awedzebra6 · Answer

your honesty is a part of who your are so embrace  it. maybe its how you approach the situation that affects them. have 1-1 conversation with who u want to be honest with just say its who u are. your intention is also important, if your intention to hurt them by being honest then its wrong but better to say it rather than holding it in. you are who u are, if they can't accept that part of you than they are afraid somewhat so don't blame yourself be proud of who u are. Remember honesty hurts but lies revealed late kills. you did a huge favor.

hello

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?