I think I have GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder)

Question

With or without reason I suddenly got anxiety attack. It often goes suddenly without any reason. I always feel the burning inside me and my palms are so sweating. I tried listening to some tips like take a break, meditate, focus on one thing. But during these practices I still feel this tension in me, my mind can't focus and goes blank during those practices it just come and goes. I tried taking a break that I think it helps but it got the whole day or 2 and I can't manage to ease. I just don't know. In school I got anxiety attack because of some math problem that I mistakenly solved sometimes that's the reason and sometime not. It just goes. I've wanted to talk to a psychiatrist about my mental health but due to my relative's experience it's very expensive. I'm trying my best to maintain while I'm having this tension daily. I'm having troubles of sleeping too. I do feel like I'm tired and sleepy but can't put myself to sleep. This experience, I felt myself so worthless and useless.

IAmACat · Answer

I've always felt so useless. Because my mind always go blank and unable to focus. I overthink and felt myself so useless because I told myself to 'think straight' and 'finish one goal' and suddenly tension started to fill in, my mind goes anxious and panic and went blank, sweating palms, this burning feeling in my chest, and the feeling of having a hard time breathing. I'm trying my best to be positive but it took so long, I'm so afraid to this tedencies would lead suicidal thoughts which is I am experiencing suicidal thoughts while dealing with this.

elvisturning56 · Answer

dont worry,i have been diognised with GAD,and promise am getting better,first of all ive had suicidal thoughts but i dont listent to them,imagine the people you love living them in the situation you are,for me myblittle sister was my reason to stay alive and keep on trying,i know the feeling,at night,after a nap,in the morning,isolation i know today wad my secon day trying to go out and it wasnt that good nor bad,i just tell myself am going to try again no matter what or no matter how low i feel,dont stop trying

IAmACat · Answer

@elvisturning56 Yeah, thanks. But that's actually my differences. My living environment in here doesn't understand how mental illness works and my relatives said I'm only thinking myself, overdramatic, and always say 'that's life' like pointing that I have to deal with this by myself. I've dealt for a long time trying that suicide is suicde bla-bla for a long time with anxiety but it grew more and it affects my studies at school. I wished I only have someone to speak with but it's only on chat but thanks for the help. I really appreciate for someone who've experienced the same I'm suffering through.  Thank you.

elvisturning56 · Answer

which country are you from,not judging bytheway

IAmACat · Answer

@elvisturning56 Philippines, most of Filipinos are not aware of mental illness and think it's for only crazy people without the understanding what it does help. Most of are being called dramatic and giving us like 'just get over it!' and 'That's normal!' like it feel like it doesn't really help.

elvisturning56 · Answer

most people dont know about mental health coz some are never depressed but my parents and friends did not believe me,they told me i was sensitive for how i felt,what triggers your anxiety or what do you fear most

IAmACat · Answer

@elvisturning56 about being useless that some of my closest or relatives are better than me, I've always think ways of how I could help but ended that their help is way better than mine, like when it comes to cleaning my cousin always do the whole cleaning while my mind suddenly went blank. I explained my cousin that my mind always went blank but she just made fun of me that I look stupid and laugh at my face, and I it let it pass with a laugh trying to ease. During those days, I've always felt that someone is really better than me, so I always have suicidal thoughts that I wish I don't exist. My parents called not enough when it comes to grade they expected more and more. I felt like it's not enough. I always felt being useless but I'm still trying to let it pass through.

elvisturning56 · Answer

im really sorry you feel this way,doing all your best but nobody recognize your your effort,and you are the strongest person ever,you want to know why,imagine you cousin being in you shoes if he/she would survive for a day,no he wouldnt be standing within 30 min.here is a trick to minimize yourself from comparing to your cousin,first try to not concentrate on their opinion on how you do your work,whenthe thoughts comes to you thinkbthem as how you ate breakfast and yoi didnt keep that in mind,you just ate and forgot aboit it and went on with your day,so when they start talking about how you did not do your work perfectly,treat those thoughts as breakfast and let them pass,but always put morr effort in improving your self,how you handle things but dont rush be patient and even if you fail at some point dont give up,just try again,i know the struggle but its worth fighting for,love you an keep pushing no matter what.

IAmACat · Answer

@elvisturning56 Thank you. I've always overthink about what if I'm like this when I'm older and have and a job or what about college will I still be like this? I will use your advixce and thank you again for helping and the support, I really appreciate it.

Frustrating

help me please

how do I change for the better?