I just feel like I'm horrible at life. i don't remember the last time I was happy. I had a really shitty childhood and adolescence. now as an adult, I feel like nothing ever goes right. I even don't believe in god because nothing happens to me that could be even something disguised as good. I lost mom at 18, never knew my dad, had to move 30+ times in my life. my landlord illegally evicted me from my apartment. I was gonna sue her and they took so long finding me a lawyer and then when I finally got one, turns out he was the wrong one. now I had to move in with my little brother where I'm absolutely miserable and have to walk around on eggshells in order not to piss my brother off. my mental health is very bad. I have depression, anxiety. social anxiety, OCD. adhd, insomnia, PTSD, and borderline personality disorder. I have wanted to be free from this life for so long but I never had the gus to actually do anything.