Hi. I'm almost 20. I have been dealing with terrible mood swings since a few years. Some days I refrain from talking to anyone. I feel exhausted and tired, and my chest feels heavy at times because of the emotions. Sometimes it's complete numbness. My anger has been an issue. I self harmed to replace my anger. It has been going on since 7 years. I have been 6 months clean. Recently, I have a had heartbreak. And my emotions have seemed to worsen. I begin to zone out and lose touch with the reality. I am aware of my consciousness, but I feel disconnected. It has happened before, but this year, it has become more frequent. I don't know if I am being true to myself or if I'm just making up all of this stuff. I am still confused as to what to say when I have to address this topic.