past trauma and its effect on personality

Depression

I was talking to my boyfriends brother cuz I was bored and I asked him if it was weird that I didnt like sex and kissing and shit and he said yes and asked why I said I was too traumatized and didnt trust anyone. And said that I was forced into my first kiss and he laughed and said it's just a kiss and I said that there was more than that and I didnt wanna talk about it and then he said if I really didnt wanna I wouldnt have brought it up and then I started to cry cuz all the memories just came piling up and I told him to just drop it but he wouldnt so I blocked him. I just wanna end it. I wanna off myself I cant handle it anymore. These memories need to get out of my head and they wont go away I hate myself for what happened. Is it my fault that it all happened? Am I the reason it happened? Am I to blame?

idontwannabehere2006

3 Answers

Zoya Ahmad

Hey Dear! Thanks for reaching out. I am sure it must be overwhelming for you. It was definitely not your fault. The person who did it was insensitive and no one has the right to take this topic lightly. You being sensitive and emotional about it is completely valid. This is a lot to process and whatever has happened is going to have a lifelong impact on you. But you cannot blame yourself for it. You have a wonderful life ahead. Let's talk about it and try to get you a perspective in life.

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cockyFish6

I m agree with you

I m alone

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fucked up

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