Hey everyone... I've been suffering from bipolar disorder since this January...n there's been a lot of stuff that has made me almost kill myself and is eating me up from inside... I don't understand why people can't just keep someone's past in their past n move on... I've done so though my past has been pretty dark but I kept myself together and pulled me out of it...but a lot of people ( my close ones or as I thought them of ) they keep bringing it up n keep bailing on me... recently my best friend ( whom I actually was jn love with ) left me ... because some old schoolmate of mine is constantly being a douchebag and keeps me mentally and emotionally disturbed... he's the one who took away my best friend from me... I'm more devastated now... feels like I can die any moment.