Lost my fiance a year ago. Precisely 13 months and 11 days. He was perfect. I love him. When I say perfect, I mean, my only best friend and an understanding, madly in love companion. We were a great team. I miss him. But I am coping with my loss gradually. But it's very hard. I acknowledge that I might have PTSD. I feel so lost and so depressed at times, almost feel like giving up on life.