Hey! Thanks for reaching out. I can only imagibe the pain you must be going through, heartbreaks are very difficult to handle especially when you’ve devoted such a long time to it. You should try to accept it, that it’s over and you should also focus on moving forward in life. The more you will think about it the more difficult it would be for you. Try to wake up, pick up a healthy routine and focus on yourself. Look forward to work. Regulate your emotions and direct it towards something healthy. Whenever you feel bad about try to cherish the good memories you have and accept that her part in your life is now over. You did your best to save this relationship may be this happened for good. You should never beg for a spot in anyone’s life, dont push yourself in her life. Rather focus on building yourself up. You will again experience the same love when the time is right.