Lately I am feeling that I have alot of restrictions that I have put up on myself, like I don't do this,and that. I am not exploring, I am always complaining, I don't know what I am feeling now. My brain feels like it's not there, I do things without even thinking and always follow the rotten path and never try to do things on my own. I don't take initiatives, I have become so passive in my own life that I just follow others. In my head it's always like "hey you don't do this", I no longer know who am I, who was I.