bro even i have the same coping mechanism as you , ik how relaxing it feels when u hurt urself physically but the point is u cant keep doing that ( ik its easier said than done) . there is a high chance u might get some serious injury and end up in a bad situation. whenever u feel angry try doing something else , like punching a pillow , shouting with ur mouth stuffed on a pillow or bed , breathing heavily while counting numbers in a backward mannrr

i can understand what u mean when u say u have suicidal thoughts but whenever it comes to ur mind, think about ur family, think abt what they will have to go through . and lastly suicide is never an option

why do you think u arent enough

what's going on in ur mind if u don't mind sharing