Sir I checked the video and the link OCD symptoms HOD test one I have many of the symptoms. Excessive handwashing, feet washing and genitals washing. Continuously blinking that people can laugh at my this behaviour. Talking to myself unstoppably and repeating the same words in excitement or fear. Like if something bad happened I can't stop myself from repeating no no no many times shouting at me. I slap myself many of the times, I am very possessive about my relationships that I get even jealous unnecessarily by my siblings. I have excessive sexual thoughts since I was 13 or 14 years old. And now I fear many of the things that am I going to have sex with someone in upcoming some days. Or am I going to become a lesbian or will I get attached to any girl or boy so much that I can't leave them. I fear making friends due to my fear of losing them and also I fear taking to people and that's why I had no friends in school. Also I am addicted to masturbation from young age and keeps on imagining dirtiest images ever. I even assaulted myself sexually and painfully many of the times by certain kinds of props. I keep on thinking bad abkut my religious issues like why God is like this why some holy book says this and some say that. I pray to god many of the times but I can't pray at all peacefully coz everytime I pray I get very dirty thoughts about it. Whenever I go to bathroom I keep on thinking about religion and God only. I can't stop myself, I have all kinds of sexual thoughts towards religion and my family sisters, my dad, uncle, grandpa, mom, dis, bro but I'm not a kind of person like that I know that. I fear putting much status in my watsapp status that people may think I am abnormal or very free. I can't study properly because everyone I read something I feel like if I'll go to the next line I will forget the past everything. And that's why I keeps on reading same answer more than hours or 2 hours. But my very normal FRIENDS say they read the same answer in 20 or 30 minutes. I always want to harm myself and I'm waiting for something bad to happen to myself, like falling from stairs, bitten by a snake, or getting an electric shock, or walking of glass pieces and dying. But I don't want to die and want to die, I take out all of my clothes while sleeping many of the times, and many time I throw them away on to floor in my sleep. And no one, literally no one can sleep with me in my bed because if someone sleeps with me I get unnecessarily arroused I may not do anything to them but I take out my clothes while sleeping. My mom and sister scolded me many times and my little bro also told them about my this kinda behaviour. But I don't know when I do that, and if I wake up and notice this at night sometimes I immediately wear my clothes and control myself and sometimes I can't control it. In past I also had 3 to 4 years Insomnia, experiencing many of the times hyperinsomnia too. Had persistent dying headache with no cure for 4 to 5 years. As I was in Depression and anxiety for past 2 years and got severe panic attacks and also I got many traumatic events but one was so traumatic about one and half year ago to me that I forgot my past, as memory loss for a period of time. Still can't recall that things much. I loved someone so deeply that I could have died for the particular person, but I never ever felt even a little urge to marry to that person just because I fear from society, rituals and married life. I fear if I get committed to someone ever I will never be able to uphold the relationship, it will break because of my stupidities. I'm also surviving with PCOD and vaginal hammoerage since 6 to 7 years alongwith Liver Infiltration, a little Hypothyroidism, complete apetite loss, but I have better immune system than my friends and family. I faced study problem very much from my childhood and still trying to cope with that.
I'm 19+ and I'm the eldest child among my siblings, and my dad in past was a liquor addict and many of the times I was beaten by him. I saw my mom getting exploited by my dad so so much, I had the responsibility to make my sis and bro feel comfortable. I was not good in studies so I had been punished for that on a weekly basis. I was slapped, even hanged upside down. Now my dad is a good person but still he maked me and my family always anxious by his certain actions. I had been so anxious from childhood that I would shake and couldn't eat whenever my dad came home from anywhere outside. I saw my aunt (my father's sister) suiciding, and she died, I saw my mom taking poison and we saved her anyhow before some years only. And I fear my career that much that everything looks so deep dark. I can't control my habits I have a normal bladder in sonography but still I have urinate in minutes in seconds. I drink water in seconds seconds and can't control these habits.... What should I do now.
Also I keep on re-explaining things so that people may get convinced with my words and they must not feel awkward about my behaviour. I'm very compulsive and obsessive both in this matter I want anyhow people to understand actually what I wanna say and I want to confess things repeatedly, I need to do many things in compulsions.
Thanks sir, I have one more doubt that as I have many hormonal and physical issues and I have to get treatment for them as well. So can I just consult just a good homeopathic doctor for my physical and mental OCD problem both?
Hey minny, your many problems match with me like sleeping time,thinking about sex in bathroom even tho about family member. I am also Masterbation addicted and always depressed. Even tho I touch my aunty's panty when she was not there. But now I am not like before. I update myself to a good person. That's why I am taking to you.
Every man is unique in his/her angle of view. Don't think worthless. There is a book about the power of subconscious mind told what you think you will be. So try to think you are good.
You can read think good feel good that's awesome.
Sextual urges is common when a man grew up. So if your mom feel irritated sleep with u. Then sleep in another room alone.
In night I never open my shirt in sleeping time but nightfalls happen that's why I sleep alone.
If urges come than mastetbate in bathroom. But don't irrigated your sis and mom.
I am not a doctor but one day I was like u. Now I am get out from those symptoms. After lockdown over u can consult with doctor. Now u can told me, I help u as much as possible.
Wake up early in the morning and doing exercises also to get sextual thought.
I wish u understand.
Wish u happy life.