hi, I was always a shy and introvert person and due to some mental bullying in school Last 4 years, I adapted all the bullying effects in my personality maybe to counter stress and from that time I was just living life without any aim or goal... but last year only, due to 2 colleagues in my office who was motivating me unintentionally and gave me all that which got missed in last few years such as friendships feels and all ...., I was able to think about myself slowly slowly but now it feels like s burden to me that so many changes are happening at once like fighting with myself to go to gym for better health as I am very thin... fighting with myself to tell me that positive things can happen with me but I guess I have Feed so many negativity in my mind that every positive thinking results in negative outcome only... fighting with myself to decide should I go to new job which I switched recently or should I continue in previous company as they retaining me...not able to handle