Hey! Thanks for reaching out. We can work on these automatic thoughts but I would be needing more information. How about we connect over a session.

Hey there thanks for reaching out l know how it feels lve been there and lm still working on it with the help of our Lord Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit .I trust you will be okay and also try reading a Book by Joyce Meyer it talks about how to fight thoughts 😊.You are not alone we are in this together .

First of all, thank you very much for answering me and for helping me with my situation. First I have some psychological books and I will read them at this time, those books are about overcoming anxiety, controlling anxiety and so on and I have some other books to learn how to have a quiet life and successful. But my problem lies in those suicidal thoughts that make me feel very anxious, wherever I go or wherever I am my brain creates some images or situations of how I can perform that horrible act that I will never accomplish in life even if I live my whole life with this condition. I am also a great believer in my religion which is Islam, where Islam keeps me motivated and gives me hope to move on, but I have respect for each religion because each religion can help each of us for whatever situation we are in. My situation in this condition came from a trauma caused in the pool, where that day the temperatures were extremely high 40+, and I immediately dived into the pool without preparing at all and in the middle of the pool I had problems with breathing, strong beatings and rapid heartbeat, cold sweats and I had a lot of trouble getting out of the pool where after a help from a close friend of mine I got out of the pool, I immediately went to a cardiologist where he told me that it was the instant situation and you a strong heart and you coped with that situation extraordinarily because if I was older he told me it would be a question mark if you would do as well as you do now. After that day everything changed in my emotional and psychological state, because every hour or half an hour I checked my blood pressure, my heartbeat because I was a person who was extremely afraid of death and if I had the slightest health concern I immediately went to family doctor . But from this situation that lasted almost 3 months I went through what might not happen to me something in my health or maybe I am hurting myself and this situation was created that I am struggling for almost a year and a half. When I was working or engaged I was in perfect condition but when I am alone or not engaged I have a problem with my anxiety and obsessions, when I am at work and engaged my thoughts come but they leave quickly and do not bother me as much as they bother me when I am alone or at home without commitments. So this is my situation, has anyone been like me before and how did it go? Excuse me maybe I am overdoing it but I needed to express myself in this application. Excuse me for my English because it is not perfect, I hope we understood. Thank you.

I see, this has started happening after an event. Well you can try to accept the fact that death is the only certain thing in life and it can come anytime but that doesn’t mean that we should always be afraid of it.